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Psalm 139:23-24 "Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

Think

I have two big dogs. One is about a hundred and thirty pounds, the other about seventy. Lisa and I take them out at night sometimes, and if you have ever walked large dogs in the dark, you know the drill. You cannot see a thing. And the yard becomes a minefield. I am not talking about the explosive kind. I am talking about the kind our dogs leave behind. You are stepping carefully, doing your best to navigate, and inevitably you step right in one. You feel it before you see it. In the dark, you cannot see what is right in front of you.

That is a ridiculous illustration, and I know it. But it makes the point. When you walk in the dark, you step in things you could have easily avoided in the daylight. You cannot see where you are going. You cannot see what is underneath your feet. Darkness keeps you blind to reality. And for the last six days, we have been studying two people who chose the dark. Ananias and Sapphira hid their true intentions, performed for the church, lied to God, and the consequences were devastating. They walked in the dark, and the dark swallowed them.

Think about the journey we have taken this week through Acts 4 and 5. We started on Monday with the early church, a community so genuine, so surrendered, that nobody even claimed their possessions as their own. We saw Barnabas sell a field and lay the full price at the apostles’ feet without fanfare, without conditions. Then we watched Ananias and Sapphira attempt the same external act with a completely different internal reality. Peter confronted them. God judged them. And fear seized the church.

Here is what I want you to walk away with today. The invitation from Christ is not one into performance. It is one into honesty. Not perfection. Honesty. God is not asking you to have it all together. He is asking you to stop pretending that you do. Christianity is not about playing a part, and it never has been. It is about continuing to surrender and being honest about where you actually are.

Whenever I sin, whenever I do my own thing my own way, it is like I jump on an elevator and press the down button. I do not realize I am going down because there is elevator music playing, and if you have ever been on an elevator by yourself, you know what happens. There are mirrors, and you check yourself out a little. You flex. Everything feels fine. But you are going down. And sometimes you need to hit the emergency stop button, pry the doors open, and step out before you reach the bottom. God provides those emergency stop buttons all the time. A friend who tells you the truth. A passage of Scripture that will not leave you alone. A moment of conviction that you cannot shake.

David understood this. After his own season of cover-ups and lies and carefully managed public image, he wrote the words we read today in Psalm 139. "Search me, God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." That is the prayer of a man who has been through the darkness and come out the other side. David spent a full year covering up his sin. His bones wasted away, he said. His strength was sapped. The cover-up was killing him. But when he finally uncovered, when he finally confessed, God covered him with mercy. And from that experience, David stopped running from God’s gaze and started inviting it. “Look at all of it, God. Every corner. Every closed door. Every secret I have kept. Search me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

That is the invitation. Not perfection, but transparency. Not flawlessness, but surrender. What we cover, God uncovers. But what we uncover, God covers. That is the gospel. When you bring everything into the light, God does not condemn you. He covers you with the grace that Jesus purchased on the cross. Your honesty is not the end of your relationship with God. It is the beginning of the real one.

Those nighttime walks with the dogs are a lot easier when I turn on the porch light. Suddenly I can see the yard. I can see the landmines. I can navigate around them. Walking in the light does not eliminate the mess, but it shows you where the mess is. And when you can see it, you can deal with it. God is not asking you to live a mess-free life. He is asking you to stop walking in the dark. Turn on the light. Let him search you. Let him know you. And let him lead you in the way everlasting.

Apply

Pray the prayer of David – Read Psalm 139:23-24 slowly, out loud if you can. Make it your own prayer today. Invite God to search every part of your heart, and trust that whatever he finds, his grace is sufficient to cover it.

Pray

Search me, God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. I am done hiding. I am done performing. I want to walk in the light, even when the light reveals things I would rather not see. Thank you for covering what I uncover. Thank you for grace that meets me in my honesty. In Jesus’ name. Amen.